9/21, riding for 55km with a broken bike

for seeing an old castle,
i rode a broken bike,for 55 km.

it was so hard that i got angry for myself very vwey much.
after i finished the way and walked around square,
i even forbided myself to cry out again.
this is because i dont want to be so weak anymore.

suddenly,
i understund an important thing for my life.

why do i always want to cry,
after i finished all hard missions?

this is because i am almost afraid of missions,
which i always regard them as very very very hard for me.
moreover, i never trust myself.

every time,
after i finish hard missions,
i am just afraid of another unknown and hard mossion to come again.
every time,
when every one appreciate me,
i cant feel successful, or apppreciate myself. only afraidness.

now,i know,
all things are not so diffucult as i pre-imaginaton.
more important thing is that,i got to trust and accept myself.

no matter wheather i finish missions or not,
i still a good guy.
älthough i am a loser someday,
i still am able to treat myself as a succeful person and re-challenge again.


right?
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