2007年12月6日 星期四

五十音

遇到太多日本有趣的傢伙了
本來從沒想過這輩子要去日本
可是 現在非常非常想有一天要去日本一趟

從昨天開始印了一張50音表
利用大量的閒暇時間狂背
把平片假名的清音全背起來了

昨天睡前 腦袋還忍不住一直轉 反覆背誦
搞到2點半才睡著!
幸好陽台有兩個聊天的日本人 還用RADIO收聽越南傳統音樂
順便給我當背景音樂 哈哈 真有氣氛的深夜

眼瞼在暈眩

這個月 我深深體會到什麼叫做衰


今凌晨 
半睡半醒間 覺得眼瞼好痛 
太睏了 只斷續地揉了好幾次
後來因為痛太久 醒來照鏡子一看
睫毛間卡著一隻不知道死了沒的螞蟻

發狂似地撥了半個多小時 螞蟻還下不來
這個時候..我不禁懷疑 螞蟻是死了沒?還是我的睫毛太濃密了?
睫毛都誤拔了好幾根了....

眼睛腫起來了 像是長了針眼
不知道外國人會不會說看了不該看的東西以後才長針眼的?
降我就糗了...

好不容易把螞蟻拔下來以後
盥洗 吃一片雜糧餅乾當早餐 讀小說...
一直覺得自己的眼瞼在暈眩

可是 眼瞼應該沒有腦袋才對啊 怎麼會暈眩呢?
我想有可能是它很接近大腦吧...


我這個月以來的衰運讓我很恐懼

2007年11月22日 星期四

vietnam roofs and illness

buildings of vietnam,
are almost french style, with colorful walls and west-style windows.

it is odd and flash for me that,
rude asia-face people walk in rushly euprope-style streets.
people who visit vietnam can easily find its economy is going to be strong soonly.
but local people still live in terribly dirty enviroment.

when i live in 4th floor hostel,
i find the roofs of local houses gathering are very fantastic.
they are so crowd, old, dirty and strong west-style.
when i see outside by the window,
i seem to be in a strange age,.......... not 2007.

recently,
because of hot weather and heavy rain,
many people take illness from uncleaning food and some of them even die.



"dysentery", is a kind of illness,
which seldom happenes in taiwan since japan-colony age.
to stop a illness means a specail step for a country, especially, in ascept of civilization.
for most of country, we tend to be familiar with,
"dysentery", never exists in our usual life already.
but it still do exsist in many palces of world.

i just think that,
illness means not only mediacal illness but also time mark....(more than those two)
but the time-mark experience is not as universal as we image.

days are still long

more 32 days, i still have.


because two hostels i ever stay,
always lie me that they must keep the cheaper room for me next day,
but they dont and force me to stay in expensive room again and again.
for my personal principle insisting,
i take my heavy luggage to search another guest house.

two days ago,
i ever tell wei that, "i have "only" 5 weeks and begain to go shopping."
however,
today, luggage is so heavey that i find 32 days is not as short as my imagine.

i feel i am lonely,
because i cant feel all your existences beside me anymore.
i seem forgot you guys long time ago.
however,
all you are putted in my deeper mind with a pure link and trust.
in the same time,
i feel my inter-world is wider, too.

last night,
i got the massege from metallica,
he said, "everyone seems to disappear"(because of being busy).
at this moment,
i hope i am beside to all you guys and my family.
now, i trust myself can do something for you.who are terribly busy in graduated school.
but sorry, i am not beside you.

i miss you and look forward to the day we meet.

i feel exhausted...

now i am in Ninh Binh, a small town of north vietnam...

although vitnam is really beautiful and flash for me,
i do feel exhausted for endless noise negociations and lies....................really exhausted.

why? i cant smile anymore?
why? i have to be nervous every second?
.....all vietnamese teach me that, dont trust any vietnamese...

i feel myself is not heartfuly anymore.

vietnamese is not used to smile to each other,
so when i smile to them, them are still pretty cool.

i was used to smile to everyone....
but, if i smile,
many guys regard me as a stupid tourist, approach me and try to take my money away.
recently, i cant smile anymore...
when i arrive at a strange place,
at first sight,
i must keep cool face and almost want to yell to anyone with anger.

"fuck!fuck!..."
"shut up!"
"stop your lies...."
i ever yelled out......
i feel so sad. very very sad and tired.
keeping cool to everyone is thier country culture, a rule.

i wonder,
althogh we always say, smile with heart is universal languege....
maybe, the old saying, is just also a culture practice rather than a fact.

just staying for 10 nights in vietnam,
i already met so many bad things and people.
therefore,
i begain to wonder about, truth of personality we always believe....
i also cant stop myself to think about the strong influence of economy....
......personalities is transforming....in the process from extreme-poor to rich...

vitnam, lets me wonder.....


today,
the local shop boss gives me a free lotus tea and banana.
i am so touched that i break my stone-appreance down.

i find,
when i try to keep cool and refuse to trust anyone,
my mind already become weak.

......can i possess my pure smile?
i am not sure too.

the travel experience in vietnam lets me find, i should, but i am not smart.

2007年11月19日 星期一

i am in vietnam for days

vietnam.

it is so crazy and rude.
i want to kill everyone by my cool eyes.
now,
i can pass every noise guys soonly with impatien appearance.

in the same time,
i love vietnam so much.
it is beautiful and big....
vietnam is really worthy to visit!....with cool mind!

i want to go home so much.....!!!

2007年11月5日 星期一

2007年11月3日 星期六

i am in Lao now

i am in lao now.

i traveled with a taiwan man for three days.
every night, we ate and chatted with each other beside the seat of river.
traveling with partner is so nice!
both we dont want to travel alone anymore.

lao bread is pretty delicious!
and beerlao is as good as czech beer.

but, i got to leave away from capital of lao and then being lonely again.

2007年10月31日 星期三

graduating photo

someone told me that my classmates take photo of graduating.




i feel i am so far with they.
in fact,
they often are the terrible nightmare of my dream.
so often, i hate all the dream about.....
i dont want to come back to school.

2007年10月25日 星期四

to 510

i will leave away thailand on 11/1.

and then,
i will go to combudia(3~5 ), vietnam(20) and lao(7~10) for one month.

in this period,
i will "call" your cell phone in 2~3 days,
dont catch them, please.

if you lose my news over 10 days........find some way to find me.

however,
those three countries are unconvinient for internet or "full-bottery of cell phone".
no matter,
i will try my best to keep in touch with you!

2007年10月23日 星期二

to 517

看過你的blog一篇文章,
卻只能看一兩篇而已,
大概是因為太久沒念書,
幾乎只聽講破碎的英語和中文,閱讀能力驟減許多。

"唉,能夠讀書也真是好的。能夠沒有半途放棄也是好的。"
一串"資源回收"的焦慮後,瞅到這句的小結,有股震撼。
這篇暑期田野求助記,
大概是我認識你以來,見過你最青春洋溢的一面了。


看到你留的文。
其實一直困惑,
即使旅行確確實實地讓自己的接受度和忍耐力變大,
然而,
依舊時時刻刻地感受到,
彷彿別人的眼睛始終盯著我,
不是善意的,不是期待的,
那些不知名的眼神,平凡狹小,並且邪惡。


即使多少感覺到自己藉由旅行施展開來,
但那盯著我瞧的眼神的狹小.....,
由於我也同樣地狹小,所以戒慎恐懼。

有些結,我還是打不開。

2007年10月20日 星期六

太過分了

我: 你去看我的部落格

glay: 丟網址給我

東南亞

目前行程更改為11/2以後離開泰國,
到其他東南亞國家去。

寮國,越南,柬埔寨,馬來西亞,新加坡

本來要跟中國女孩去印度,
可是時間喬不太上。


只剩兩個月了,
總覺得玩的時間不夠,不想如期回台灣了。

我好想去印度啊!!!

乘木筏掉到水裏頭

參加的trekking是熱門觀光行程,
基本上沒有甚麼危險,所以才參加。

木筏應該也不會太危險,
救生衣不夠,
導遊說絕對不會掉到水里,所以沒關係。

可是,我掉到水裡去了。

重點不是木筏危險,
是划船的都是十四十五歲的少年,
我坐的那艘船,
划船的人技術不太好,
所以坐在船尾才會一直被樹枝打到。

媽咪傳簡訊來說,水火無情。

我又再度被當成是女同志了

在曼谷,



連離開台灣,還是再度被認為是女同志。
現在也沒有向以前一樣那麼在意了,
只是,很疑惑自己到底是哪些行徑,因而散發出哪些氣質?

2007年10月19日 星期五

泰國的日本餅乾

我希望回台灣的時候還有錢,
在泰國買日本餅乾回台灣吃。

泰國除了民生基本需求比較低以外,
很多東西都已經比台灣還貴。

可是,日本品牌一堆的餅乾,都超級便宜。
pocky只要15泰銖,十袋裝的小熊餅乾70泰銖。
好好吃好好吃,在台灣都捨不得買這些品牌的餅乾。

我一定要帶一大堆餅乾回台灣。

目前人在泰國北方邊界mae-sa-long

mae-sa-long與其說是泰國村落,不如說是中國鄉村。


二次世界大戰時期,
一群國民黨軍"93師",從雲南頻頻撤退到泰國邊境,
因為國共分裂,不被雙方政府承認。
這批軍力後來幫忙泰國邊境人民對抗泰共,被收編為泰國人民。

因此村落"美斯樂",
幾乎是由這批撤退的中國雲南國軍及後裔組成。
以中文和雲南話為主,老壯年人還不一定會說泰文。

此地居民不多,又離山下要兩三個小時的車程,
因此要上山來是隨機湊到七個人才能上山,否則就得包車400銖。

為了到達這裡,我昨天等了六個半小時的車,
等不到,只好先到泰緬邊界mae sai去住了一晚。
今天等了兩個小時,一直被一群司機用中文強迫喊價,非常不舒服,
本來想放棄了,加上這兩天左上眼皮一直跳個不停,
正在找往清萊的公車,正好遇到一台湊滿七個人的車。
加上遇到一個美斯樂的女孩帶著我坐車轉車,
所以好幾個小時的舟車勞頓後,終於到了。

已經決定在這裡待個幾天。

此地山鑾連綿而僻靜,
只有一條主要道路彎彎曲曲,起起伏伏的貫穿,
住宅和店家幾戶稀落地分布。雜貨店有好幾家。

住的民宿"新山",一晚50泰銖。
老闆看起來三十出頭,可已經50來歲,
他在台灣念書工作了三十年,三年前剛回來接下父母親的家業,
整個人還很有台灣local的氣質,台語比我還輪轉。
很親切,房間雖然簡單但很乾淨舒適,
剛剛小睡一會,感覺像是回到家媽咪每次鋪的床。

下午老闆丟了中文版的世界日報給我看,
現在電視在播趙少康的政論節目,
我又看到陳水扁先生了,馬上心情變差!!!!

電影 stardust星塵傳奇

在曼谷的mbk華納威秀看了這部片。


非常不好看。

2007年10月14日 星期日

my english...

koreans and holand people appreciated me , "your english is good."


but in fact,
my english is so poor, hahha.

i trekking with a couple of england for three days.
one day,
we stayed in a villege which have two house,
one for tourists, one for locel family.

i ask they a question.
the girl misunderstand my sentence becasuse of my poor english.
her boyfriend found and laugh at her.
she get a little bit angry.... and then fight with het boyfriend.

i am really sorry.

i falled in river

i joined the trekking tour for three day in chiang-mai.
we climbed high moutains for several hous a day,
stayed in remote villeges and took the "wood boat".


it is really fun.
terrible toilets, simple people and delicious food.
i become heavier after trekking......i eat a lot.


at last day, we took a "wood boat".
three passengers shared a boat.
the diver has a pretty bad skill, i think.
i was beat by a branch of wood aound rivers for times.

the most terrible moment,
i attacked by several thin branch of trees in seconds.
a last one, a big big branch, which i cant pass safely.
i was beaten by tree, turned a big circle on boat and then falled in river.

i cant do nothing but try my best to keep in calm.
the level of water is as high as my neck.
but it is too sudden to stand up.
i waved my arm and try to catch something....

i touched the boat soonly and climbed it by myself.
(what is wrong with the driver? )
thanks to god!
i only lose my glasses.
the girl,who took same boat with me, caught my slipers for me.

after other tourists knew what happened to me,
they said "terrible!!!!!","oh! are you all right!!"...etc with scared appearance to me.
but i feel prrety silent and not sad.
before traveling, i must scared and sad for long.

however,
i am so slient that i find what a terrible thing i met!!!
we took the local and simple boat without "safe dress".
and the river is very very rush!
if i didnt catch the boat at first time....no one can save me,
i must die.

sorry to daddy and mommy.
i am too not careful.
and i spend 2100 thai money to get a new glasses in two hours.

i am safe now.
but i seems get a sick again because of drinking the river water.

dear 510,
tell daddy and mommy to pray in temple for thanking god, please.

i falled in river

2007年10月8日 星期一

510

dear sisiter:

can you send me a e-mail to my hotmail box?

at my last day of being czech,
i met three woman who came from taiwan.
after they know i didnt take any photo of myself,
they try their best to take a lot of photo for me in short hours.

because i will come home after three month,
one of them is willing to send the files to you.
(they travel for one month,so maybe you will get lately.)
therefore, i need your mail.
after you get it....
maybe you can select some photo,
and "wash them our" to show daddy and mommy.
ok?
if so, they can see me without turing the computer on.
(i ever try to wash photo in thailand and czech,
but the price is very high.....per photo nt:25 or 42)

see you!

2007年10月7日 星期日

to 510

dear sister:
i decide to stay in thailand for one month,
and then, go to malaysia and singapore.
if i have fellow travelers,
i will went to combudia,
if no, i will not go,
because it is really dangerous out of highsight.

the oversea call fare of thailand is more expensive than czech.
and my budget is limited,
so i cant call home so often.

see you!

2007年10月6日 星期六

to kingkong

you are also being hard working,
although you feels upset or............

you know,
i always think,
my biggest prolem is,
i cant do things when i cant understand why sould i do it?

so i am lost for long long time aleady and no growing.

i do think,
you are hardwork for your mission,
although you think you are pushed.
at least, you are forward and doing something.

heavier or thiner?

i am somtimes heavier , sometimes thiner.
my weight is up to my bedget.
dont sak me about this question anymore!
i always am afraid of your kind blame"s" and remination"s".....

i am thinner a little, just a little.

i will be as good as you guys

i want to and will be as good as you guys.


i often think of you guys,
easpecially when i walk on the town ,which is called kalovary very.
in this moment,
i hope i will be as rich as you guys.
(all you are in "rich future" department ).
because, i expect that,
we can visit the beautiful country together someday.
all together!

everyone is so busy now.
although, i miss you and want to meet you guys on msn.
i do still be happy for your hardworking.

i was a bad student and friend.
but i will try my best to do well.

i want to and will be as good as you guys.
because i want to be your friend forever.

2007年10月5日 星期五

if i travel around southeast asia

after i pay fare of visa and transport.....
i only have 220 budget for bed and meals a day.....



now, i live in bankok.
a super simple hostel, single room is 170 per night.
and a japan man tell me i sould kill the price.

last night, i drink voda coke with three japan men.
they looks like three university students,
but in fact, all they are old adults. (28 30 38 years old.)

the oldest one, is hard to understand for me.
he drinks two beer and smoke a lot, even touching the girl boss of bar.
(bar is beside road, we seat on the simple chair and use chair as table.)
but when we talk about the traditional famous figure of japan,
he adds a short explaination to the name.( he dont join our talking at first.)
moreover, he prints me the cartton picture of do-la-a-mon,
and tell me why we call it do-la-a-mon.

the youngest one is very honest and simple man.
he seldom drink and no smoking.
after drinking one voda coke, he is dizzy and sleepy already.

although the three men are totaly different ,
they standard japan figures, no matter face or personality.
maybe, my description seems sound a little bit dangerous.
but, i do happy to meet different kind of japaness.
(my third short meeting with japaness in travel.)

in bankok,
it seems dangerous, not because of the country or people.
when i walk in popula night market,
i think,this is because, un-balances authopargy power between foreiners and thai people.
foreiners take a lot of money.
their behaviors are so crazy and uprepectable to thailand culture...here...

for me,
foreiners is really dangerous.....and extremly suck...
because of their desire, the land and people become so stronge.

i am not sad for thailand, because it is strong for life.

2007年10月4日 星期四

10/4, i arrive at tailand already

today, i arrive at tailand already.


when i see tailand in first eyes, i do love it already.
it is really different lifestyle with europe or taiwan.
a strong life energy, i think.

travel seems be more dangerous and unsure for me.
most important thing is that, price of tailand is not as cheap as my imaging.
i cant pay the price for gift.
............i think, i do be too poor, haha.

i want to travel southeast asia, but i am planing.
(solider killed a lot of buda monk in burma....
it is so terrible... i saw it in picture of duestch newspaper and ask from a germany. )

why?

why i send postcard to my mommy or teacher,
they get postcard in 7 days.

but oa's department is slower?



oa, thank you a lot.

2007年9月28日 星期五

dear 510

i want to call you so much.
but the card i buy is not enough.


miss you.

9/28,nake guys in room

i always scared,
when i get up and see a lot of nake men going aroud.


although some of them with handsome face and good body shape,
it is still scaring for me.


different culture.
i get up early and sleep early.
but they act in different time.

9/28, i still hate prague

i still hate prague so much,
although the japan boy really appreciates this city.

it is crowd and always rain for whole days.
never stop.
i cant eat in restaurant because of the expensive price.



i should travel for myself.
for no one else.
forget the viewpont and judgement of others.

2007年9月25日 星期二

25/9,today is full-moon day,

today is full´-moon day,
so everyone is in a happy holiday.


i an still ,for four day already,
but i force myself to walk out,rather than lie on bed today.


wish you have a good day.
and all we got to focus on our goal for future.


miss you always,but i got to be more brave ,just like all you guys.

2007年9月23日 星期日

kingkong

i do miss miss you a lot.





because i never met you on msn.


(i just want to get married with some guys,
no study , no traveling,......................

510

i miss you.



can you translate the article for daddy and mommy?
thanks a lot.

i am really uncomfortable today,
so i cant take the internet date with family.

but i have called home today.
i will call home before i leave away czech public.

and give me your company telephone number, your seat!

take care of yorself,too.

guys

people,in taiwan,send me messeges is as ceap as you send to people in taiwan.

and i dont need to pay any addtional charge.






i imply strongly.....


did anyone catch my postcards?
i already sent 39 postcards, and worried that noone arrive at taiwan.

9/21, riding for 55km with a broken bike

for seeing an old castle,
i rode a broken bike,for 55 km.

it was so hard that i got angry for myself very vwey much.
after i finished the way and walked around square,
i even forbided myself to cry out again.
this is because i dont want to be so weak anymore.

suddenly,
i understund an important thing for my life.

why do i always want to cry,
after i finished all hard missions?

this is because i am almost afraid of missions,
which i always regard them as very very very hard for me.
moreover, i never trust myself.

every time,
after i finish hard missions,
i am just afraid of another unknown and hard mossion to come again.
every time,
when every one appreciate me,
i cant feel successful, or apppreciate myself. only afraidness.

now,i know,
all things are not so diffucult as i pre-imaginaton.
more important thing is that,i got to trust and accept myself.

no matter wheather i finish missions or not,
i still a good guy.
älthough i am a loser someday,
i still am able to treat myself as a succeful person and re-challenge again.


right?
(some guys who read the article may say, fetree is gowing up...

i am sick

i am seriouslz sick of stomach...for two days.

maybe,
i ate too many ice cream which were cheap and high-class.
or,
czech dish are cooked in frying way,
and they treat meal as main food.

in the sum,
i am suffring for the terrible pain.
and i even lied on bed for whole day.

now,
i arrive at another county, hradec-kralove.

2007年9月17日 星期一

guys

hello,
can anyone help me to post article in my broad in less than 30 days?

because,
"wretch bbs" will delet broads, which have no new article in a month.
and i cant sign in bbs in czech public.

please. and thanks a lot.



------
i send all postcards to mailbox of oa's department.
oa will get all of them.
so dont worried about it!

miss you!

9/16 give me a party

last night,
i was in a pub and wrote the secret letter for someone.

resident"s" who entered pub,
said "how are you?" or ask "are you from taiwan?".

a middle-age man,
who ever worked in the middle east area, korea and ameriaca,
gave me a party, one beer, one wisky and one expresso.

we chatted with each other for more than two hours.
he knows about ansian culture very much,
and surprised for political environment of taiwan.
i wrote his name in chinese to him,
and he so like it that want to print "peter" on his arm.

it nice talk. and very nice beer. and smooth wisky.
i got serious drunk....!
but i didnt forget to keep myself safe.

9/17,climb mountain

today,
i walked for about 15km to climb the top of mountain.

it was really a long way, and lonely.
cars passed so soon and i am afraid of ...
plain, mountain or lake, is endless.

when i was too tire to keep going,
i didnt want to cry ,
but thought, how can i keep myself going?
...........it was really hard in that moment.
i can do nothing but count number of my feets.

it is not as beautiful as picture in the dictionary.
on my way to mountain,
the lovely town"s", a big big bid lake, and mountains, are in my eyes.

i got loss whem i was under the moutain.
four guys, two couple with a smal car, took me to the big road.
it is happy to hitchhike for travellers,
because it let travellers feel friendly and helpful.

however,
when i got off and faced the wild road,
i felt regret about hitchhiking.
a strong sense of loss!

it seems tell me, i defeat myelf.
i didnt keep my mind to finish whole way.
although, i still spent 2 hours to walk to hostel , under big sun.

i seem get sunstroke.
i am too tired to fall asleep.
maybe, a cup of beer will save me.

2007年9月10日 星期一

dear 510

i got your letter ,already.

however, internet cafe dont offer the mi-co-fung,
so i cant use these card in czech.
maybe, i will use it in tailand.

i will call grandmother.

i arrive at another beautiful town for three day and am fine now.

i will go to "telc"(town) tomorrow.

2007年9月8日 星期六

guys

guys,
dont you post sth for me?


so......over....., i am....!

in ck

i am homsick now.
but i cant be timid, right?


i sent the postcards to weiwei and 517 two days ago.

and i sent the postcard to metallica oa king and glay.

wish you will get them.

internet is really expensive and super slow.

2007年9月5日 星期三

i am in czech now

because i cant type in english,
it is hard to show my travel jornal.

when i take the big bag alone in taiwan airport,
i am awared that how crazy am i !
after i check in, i find the packpage is 15.5kg,
so no dubetly i buy another big bag in tailand airport, which costs nt$2800....


here is so cold.
i take just a big jacket and short t-shirts.
can i buy a long t-shirt with bid prague mark?
it seem be cool ,but foolish ,too.

the food is so expensive for me, that i just eat two peice of small bread for half day.
moreover, i hadnt drink because of water being not cheap and i dont want to drink co-la anymore.

my english is really not bad, you guys must know, haha.
it is not difficult to go travel with poor english.

after i passed whole night in prague airport alone,
all thing is better and better now.

four month seem be as long as forever!

miss you guys and taiwan cheap food.^^

2007年9月2日 星期日

出發

出發,
帶著旅行的焦慮和期許,而非一昧任性的開心或炫燿心態。


回來以後,
我不知道我會不會反而離我的家庭更遠了?
或者,回來本身,就充滿了疑慮?

我非常感謝以及感到溫暖,
所有,祝福我,給予我有形及無形支持的朋友。
人,都必須先從別人毫不遲疑的信任中,才學會堅強和忍受孤獨。

這趟旅程,
懷著許多不由自主、源於體感的問題和困境,才有勇氣啟程。
被知識套牢,重新視看台灣,錯置拼貼的家庭,往後的日子...,
並非倚靠"旅行"來解決這些,
卻渴望,自己從而獲得更開闊更健康的視角。
知道世界有多大,迫不及待知道這個世界,就沒有時間不開心。


這趟旅程並非為了逃避,
而是,從旅行的訓練,使自我擁有一雙更超脫的眼睛和健康的心態。