vietnam roofs and illness

buildings of vietnam,
are almost french style, with colorful walls and west-style windows.

it is odd and flash for me that,
rude asia-face people walk in rushly euprope-style streets.
people who visit vietnam can easily find its economy is going to be strong soonly.
but local people still live in terribly dirty enviroment.

when i live in 4th floor hostel,
i find the roofs of local houses gathering are very fantastic.
they are so crowd, old, dirty and strong west-style.
when i see outside by the window,
i seem to be in a strange age,.......... not 2007.

recently,
because of hot weather and heavy rain,
many people take illness from uncleaning food and some of them even die.



"dysentery", is a kind of illness,
which seldom happenes in taiwan since japan-colony age.
to stop a illness means a specail step for a country, especially, in ascept of civilization.
for most of country, we tend to be familiar with,
"dysentery", never exists in our usual life already.
but it still do exsist in many palces of world.

i just think that,
illness means not only mediacal illness but also time mark....(more than those two)
but the time-mark experience is not as universal as we image.

days are still long

more 32 days, i still have.


because two hostels i ever stay,
always lie me that they must keep the cheaper room for me next day,
but they dont and force me to stay in expensive room again and again.
for my personal principle insisting,
i take my heavy luggage to search another guest house.

two days ago,
i ever tell wei that, "i have "only" 5 weeks and begain to go shopping."
however,
today, luggage is so heavey that i find 32 days is not as short as my imagine.

i feel i am lonely,
because i cant feel all your existences beside me anymore.
i seem forgot you guys long time ago.
however,
all you are putted in my deeper mind with a pure link and trust.
in the same time,
i feel my inter-world is wider, too.

last night,
i got the massege from metallica,
he said, "everyone seems to disappear"(because of being busy).
at this moment,
i hope i am beside to all you guys and my family.
now, i trust myself can do something for you.who are terribly busy in graduated school.
but sorry, i am not beside you.

i miss you and look forward to the day we meet.

i feel exhausted...

now i am in Ninh Binh, a small town of north vietnam...

although vitnam is really beautiful and flash for me,
i do feel exhausted for endless noise negociations and lies....................really exhausted.

why? i cant smile anymore?
why? i have to be nervous every second?
.....all vietnamese teach me that, dont trust any vietnamese...

i feel myself is not heartfuly anymore.

vietnamese is not used to smile to each other,
so when i smile to them, them are still pretty cool.

i was used to smile to everyone....
but, if i smile,
many guys regard me as a stupid tourist, approach me and try to take my money away.
recently, i cant smile anymore...
when i arrive at a strange place,
at first sight,
i must keep cool face and almost want to yell to anyone with anger.

"fuck!fuck!..."
"shut up!"
"stop your lies...."
i ever yelled out......
i feel so sad. very very sad and tired.
keeping cool to everyone is thier country culture, a rule.

i wonder,
althogh we always say, smile with heart is universal languege....
maybe, the old saying, is just also a culture practice rather than a fact.

just staying for 10 nights in vietnam,
i already met so many bad things and people.
therefore,
i begain to wonder about, truth of personality we always believe....
i also cant stop myself to think about the strong influence of economy....
......personalities is transforming....in the process from extreme-poor to rich...

vitnam, lets me wonder.....


today,
the local shop boss gives me a free lotus tea and banana.
i am so touched that i break my stone-appreance down.

i find,
when i try to keep cool and refuse to trust anyone,
my mind already become weak.

......can i possess my pure smile?
i am not sure too.

the travel experience in vietnam lets me find, i should, but i am not smart.

i am in vietnam for days

vietnam.

it is so crazy and rude.
i want to kill everyone by my cool eyes.
now,
i can pass every noise guys soonly with impatien appearance.

in the same time,
i love vietnam so much.
it is beautiful and big....
vietnam is really worthy to visit!....with cool mind!

i want to go home so much.....!!!

i decided to go to india

i decided to go to india on december 1~3.

i decided to go to india

i am in Lao now

i am in lao now.

i traveled with a taiwan man for three days.
every night, we ate and chatted with each other beside the seat of river.
traveling with partner is so nice!
both we dont want to travel alone anymore.

lao bread is pretty delicious!
and beerlao is as good as czech beer.

but, i got to leave away from capital of lao and then being lonely again.